So i finally had my dance performance in SMU on Friday for Vivace 2006!! Boy were the 5 of us excited...haha we were so full of nervous energy and full of excitement. As usual we got late getting ready and were running from SESS to the space outside OCBC Bank. But once we reached the excitement rose through the roof. At least for me. Looking at the people, audience, and the atmosphere...for me it is like the sweetest thrill. The love of performing in front of a crowed. Flaunting your talent. I love it!! The emotions running inside me in that moment before i step center stage is not explainable. I’m full of confidence, excitement, nervousness and pride. I become such an attention seeker when I’m performing. The more eyes on me the better i feel. No stage fright what so ever.
Yup so there i was standing on my spot, waiting for the music.......as the music flooded the surrounding, i lit up, became Charu the madancer. Nothing mattered at that moment other than my dance. If i may say so myself, I’m a fairly good dancer and a highly passionate one. I personally feel that i did a great job on Friday. I just had one glitch, i forgot one step. Now at this moment i would like to add that to get the true review of the performance go ask my friends and my sister. *grin*
Other than the dance itself, i enjoyed wearing the costume. It was too cool!! We had gotten the alladin pants and cool hip belts. Both articles magnified the joy of doing the hip and ass movements *grin* i am a very open and experimental dancer. So I’m cool with all stuff. As long as it doesn't get too vulgar. *stern look*
I’ll end this post with some photos from the performance. Enjoy and if i look bad.....don't tell me!!!
Before the performace..I love the costume 
The final pose
Radhika, Priyanka, Richa, Me and Zahabia
Date Watched: 12th August 2006
With my paternal grandfather 
Yes that is me during my 2nd Holi in Calcutta
My mother loved to dress me up.
3 months old smiling baby
With family on my 2nd birthday in Jodhpur, India 
Me on Neptune Altar on my 1st birthday 
That is me carrying my stick thin little sisterAfter doing a lot of soul searching and lots of thinking, i have come to a conclusion. i sincerely believe that the biggest flaw in humans is their need to be loved.
It is this very need of humans that keep us unhappy, dissatisfied, discontent, hurt and miserable. We spend our whole life working towards achieving this love in one way or the other. Just think about it. Now i am talking about all the kinds of love here. Not just that between a man and a woman.
We study to get the love of parents and self. We work to get the love of our spouses and/or parents and self. we do the household chores to get the love of spouse and/or parents. We get a haircut to get the love of our boyfriend/girlfriend. Fundamentally nearly all our actions in life are centred towards getting love from someone and even ourselves.
All this doesn't mean that our need to love is simply a flaw. It is also what makes us humans. Unfortunately we don't realise just how much pain and misery we cause ourselves running after this love.
Anyways this is just my point of view.
Cheers
